bye bye ( dedicated to KEBO )

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]


xoxo, byeeeee :')

bye

time flies faster than i thought and you'll leave this city the day after tomorrow.. we had you farewell party with all our band family, but is it everyone or just me, who walk home with tears upon my face?? i know, i know, all this time, it was me who try to make this feeling happen.. not you..

i cried for a while, and then i just sat down and pray : God, if this is the end, please end it beautifully.. if we can move on, please let me know.. thank you ^^

merci amore <3
thank you..
you'll always be someone special here, in my heart :')

farewell

i guess this is it, huh?
mungkin ini bukan waktu yg tepat, mungkin ini bukan cara yg tepat.
tapi aku gtau knp,aku merasa harus nglakuin ini.. sebelum semua terlambat..

makasih ya, buat semua kenangan yg uda kamu kasi..
makasih, buat semua waktu yg uda kamu kasi..
makasih, buat kesediaanmu mendengarkan semua keluh kesahku..
makasih, buat semua saran (yg masuk akal & yg tidak, yg bagus & yg jelek | xP)
makasih, buat semua cerita yg kamu bagi, buat semua kepercayaanmu ke aku buat membantumu mengatasi masalah yg kamu hadepin..
makasih, buat sebuah perasaan nyaman berada di dalam lingkup keluarga, keluargamu
makasih, buat semua kesempatan membahagiakanmu (meski aku gtau aku gagal ato engga)
makasih, buat setaip perasaan yg aku rasa, karena kamu mengajarkan aku untuk dewasa..
makasih, karna kamu, aku tau gimana rasanya cemburu x)
dan makasih, untuk semua hal, besar maupun kecil, yg sudah terjadi antara kita :D

aku g tau dan sangat ingin tau, knp kamu berubah sekarang..
kamu berubah, di saat aku tau, aku mungkin tdk akan bisa sedekat ini denganmu lagi..
aku yakin saat ini, apa yg aku rasa bukan sekedar apa yg aku rasa..
aku tau ini nyata dan sedang terjadi..
maav, kalau selama ini aku pernah berbuat salah..
maav, kalau selama ini aku pernah membuatmu mendapat masalah..
dan maav, buat sebuah perasaan sayang, yg sampai sekarang masih ada^^
tapi jangan kawatir, rasa ini akan berlalu..
sama seperti berlalunya cerita ini..
dan itu sudah dimulai, saat kau tak lagi berbagi..
bukan saat kau pergi..

au revoir amour ♥ je vais essayer de vivre sans toi :')
*goodbye love, i'll try to live without you*

jusqu'à ce que toujours, vous aurez toujours une place dans mon cœur. et quand tu reviens, ces mains vous accueillera toujours grande ouverte ♥
*sampai selamanya, kamu akan selalu memiliki tempat di hatiku. dan ketika kamu kembali, tangan ini akan selalu terbuka lebar menyambutmu*

farewell, bro
farewell, kebo
farewell, nuno

:')

xoxo sapi . lhona . illona xoxo

that

less than a month..
less than a month from now and you are gonna leave me..
another goodbye..
huft~
can i handle it this time?
you know, you said that we can have momments together before you leave..
but the fact is, you didn't even reply my text!
i started to have a negative thinking , you know..
like, maybe you don't want me to be a lot more sad if you leave or some..
*actually, it's not really a bad thought*
but hey..
i am here, want to have some quality time with you..
since you gonna leave me here,
alone,
again :'(
well, anyway, i kinda miss you right now..
want to talk to you badly!
since we both know, if you leave to jakarta, our talking time will be less then ours know..
and i'm sure you personally realize that our talking time here is definitely less than we used to have!
bzzzt~
i kinda scared that you care to that girl again!!!!
huaaaaah @.@
CANT BE LAAA!!!
hehe :P
xoxo17 times ! :)

xoxo 17 times !!

is it possible that the word 'i LOVE you' also saved in the deepest part of your heart ?? xoxo buff !

when you're not around

When You're Not Around

You come into my life
And then you go away
You make me feel like a fool
For wanting you to stay
But I'm a busy guy
A lot of things to do
But there's a reason why
Some of them just seem to lose their flavor

I feel like death warmed up
I can't taste the coffee in my cup
I feel so low I'm underground
Every time you're not around

And if I didn't feel so high
And if I didn't feel so proud
Then I wouldn't cry
I wouldn't feel so down
When you're not around

You come and fill me up
With ecstasy and pain
And then I run on empty
'Til I see you again
But I've got things to do
And places I can go
I guess I can't blame you
If some of them just seem to feel like nowhere

No, I don't feel so great
I can't taste the sandwich on my plate
I try to sing but there's no sound
Every time you're not around

And if I didn't feel so high
And if I didn't feel so proud
Then I wouldn't cry
I wouldn't feel so down
When you're not around

breathless

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do
And if we had babies
they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are

Chorus
You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made
And if we had babies
they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know
how very special you are

Chorus

You must have been sent
from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love
believe me
You’re something special
I only hope that I’ll one day
deserve what you’ve given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

Chorus x 2

Breathless


*dedicated to my angel from my past :)*

today , 05:38 pm

i'm tired of crying , but this tears just won't stop flowing :'(

how i love you

" for every desicion about your dream , i'll always be there and support you . for every desicion about you and me , i'll always be here , waiting for you "

lhonasuper

i hate love ?

i don't know what is this feelin .. i sure do love him , but i have doubt on him .. i know he was totally care for me, but that girl, that silly , idiotic girl, said that he was doing the same thing to her , looked like what he did to me.. hew T.T

i hate that !

he said he chose me.. then why he did the same thing (as i was) to her ?? errrrggh!! i hate him ( but i love him) T.T

why GOD, i have to in love with this kind of jerk ? i just can't forget him .. CANNOT ! huhuuuuu :'(

HELP ME, LORD ! please ...

i love my fellas

i am a student in a social class named XI social 2 .. i'm very thankful can meet those people .. they are very energic, funny , happy , etc ! I LOVE ALL OF THEM !! i love every detail of them *wew*

sianny , lawren , flat, defan , niti , tina , klemens , yole , paulus, bakpo, bebek, , bos , julius , kenny, robby , nia , phi2, bella , pk , wanda , oshin , cecex , prat, jess , jegi , claire --->>>>> I LOVE YOU GUYS !!

i miss you

when the wind blows coldly

i'm sittin here lookin at my phone

wishing inside my heart :

if somehow there will be your name on it , callin

i know we are no longer together

but i can't stay far from you

you promise me that one too !

i asked for nothing , dear

just , i need you by my side in my darkest time

your promise means nothin when you don't do it , dear

i know

i understand you've been busy

you have deadline to do

and i'm not gonna disturb it

not at all !

i only want you to really mean what you say

' i'll talk to you later '

when is it , dear ?

huft ~

i miss you ,

so much !

><

a lot of fun :)

well , i went to PACET yesterday with my very best friends Nuno , Ndott , Surya , and Chee ~ well , wait up for the photos okaay ?

lhonasuper

the real reason ?

well , is it possible when a relationship ended by the guy it's not because the guy doesn't love her anymore ? instead , the reason why he leave her is because he loves her ? many relationship ended because of social status . when i said social status , i'm not talking about money or power , but the differences in how to joke or how to talk or how to act . well , many girls willing to come into the guy's world , but then the guy leave her . if asked why , the guy answered 'i like her the way she is' . lhooo ? then , what should the girls do ? what should the guy do ? what should they do to make them being in a relationship again ? because if you really really know , most of the guys are still totally in love with the girls and so are the girls !

(thanks to ka Sisca )

lhonasuper ♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸❤¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪

wow !

well , it's nothing ..
just , i met one of the vokalist of a national band in indo called d masiv ~

it's quite funny actually , here's the story :

i went to a restaurant called leko with my fams , i sat down near washtafel and i saw a guy who look like my friend ( read : from behind ) . i was just trying to find out when he turned around and i just thought 'i know this guy'! after our eyes met ( read : i was half doing idiotic pose ) i realized it was ryan , the vocalist of d masiv . many people there , was taking picture with him , but i think i'm to shy to do it ( read : lazy >< ) . anyway , it was nice to meet him ..

good luck to d masiv , lhonasuper

Last Poetry

Tangisanku pilu menembus malam .

Tapi tak bisa membuat hatiku lebih baik .

Orang – orang disekitarku mulai bertanya ,

Lhona , ada apa denganmu ?

Inginku jawab pada mereka :

‘Aku sakit hati’

Ya ,

Semua sudah berakhir .

Semua keindahan hidup selama sebulan terakhir ,

Semua cerita cinta selama sebulan terakhir,

Malam ini berakhir sudah !

Bukan aku yang mau ,

Tapi dia yang kusayang .

Tangisanku sudah kau dengar ,

Kepedihanku sudah kau dengar ,

Tapi memang itu keputusanmu . .

Dan tak bisa aku rubah .

Mungkin aku terlalu naïf ,

Kalau aku berangan untuk kau jadi yang terbaik bagiku .

Mungkin aku terlalu bodoh ,

Yang menutup pikiran kalau kau bisa tidak sayang padaku .

Semuanya begitu indah . .

Saat kau disampingku ,

Saat kau memelukku ,

Saat kau mengecup keningku ,

Bahkan saat kau mengomel ,

Dan mengolok – olok aku !

Sebagai seorang manusia aku tidak ingin semua ini berakhir .

Tapi apa mau dikata ?

Yang kusesali kau pernah bilang sayang ,

Padahal hatimu ragu . .

Yang kusesali kau membuatku serasa benar – benar kaucintai ,

Tapi ternyata , semua itu hanya topeng !

Mungkin hanya aku orang yang pernah bilang padamu ,

Bahwa aku sakit hati , tapi sambil tertawa .

Tapi andai kau lihat jauh ke mataku ,

Aku hancur !

Aku tidak lebih dari kaca yang terpecah karena dibanting pemiliknya .

Kau mau aku untuk kuat .

Kau mau aku untuk bertahan .

Jangan kau kuatir , sayangku ~

Aku pernah berjanji untuk bertahan ,

Dan akan kulakukan meski semua sudah berlalu .

Kau mau aku membuka hatiku ?

Oke !

Akan kubuka hatiku ,

Tapi asal kau tahu ,

Tidak sembarang orang bisa masuk !

Kau membuatku muak dengan seribu maafmu ,

Tapi aku tidak bisa bohong kalau aku masih sayang kamu .

Ketika di akhir cerita kita kau masih mau menjadi ‘kakak’ bagiku ,

Tak apa .

Itu sudah cukup !

Terserah mereka mau bilang aku bodoh dan kekanak-kanakan ,

tapi kau akan lihat ,

Inilah lhona ,

Adikmu ,

Yang akan berusaha tersenyum dan tegar

Yang akan berdiri tegap ,

Menyongsong hari esok ,

Tanpa hadirmu lagi .

PS : ga semudah itu aku nglupain kamu en buka hati buat cwo laen ! dasar bego ! xDD

11.40 PM =

With all of my love,

And the rest of my tears ,

And the rest of my energy ,

Illona fedora

lesson from pooh

"Tigger is all right really," said Piglet lazily.

"Of course he is," said Christopher Robin.

"Everybody is really," said Pooh. "That's what I think," said Pooh.

"But I don't suppose I'm right," he said.

"Of course you are," said Christopher Robin.

well , this is my point of view : everybody was made beautiful and unique in their own way . don't be jealous or angry or mad for what you have today . hey , if the less lucky can thank God for what they have , why we can't ?

*thank God for everything you have , because you have it for God's good plans :)

God bless , lhonasuper

not again , please !

you can call me stupid

you can call me weak

you can call me freak

you can call me anything !

yes , i am crying !

so what ?

i am sad , well , yet happy

i am glad you get what you've been dreaming

but then i understand than you are gonna leave

soon or later !

well i don't know what to say

this lips just freeze

and tears just slowly come out

i hate when you say good bye

it happened once and it's gonna happen again

you're gonna leave me (again) !

well , i'm nothing but a girl

a girl who still feel the rest of the love

love from her past !

thousand times i asked myself to let you go

but i just can't !

cannot , god dammit !

ergh , i don't know ~

i'm just afraid that you'll change

and change

and change

at least say it to me

tell me that you are hard to leave

tell me , please

tell me

bee's attack !

March 6h , 2010 . we , xis2 of petra 2 christian hs , visit MAJAPAHIT MUSEUM , one GATE , and 'TIKUS' TEMPLE . it was a total fun activities ( even the heat was burning our skin ) . we enjoyed it so much ! unfortunately , our friends , cecilya and sylvia couldn't go with us :'(

as you see in the picture , we wore a bee costume ( it's a jacket actually! ) . and eah , it's our class' jacket . looks pretty cool , huh ? We spent 150000 rupiahs to make it , but it's just worth it!

another picture will be uploaded soon :)

catch you later , lhonasuper *

dude !

.people hate waiting , right ? so am i , dude !

.i just want to congratulate you .

.don't you have enough time just to reply my text ?

.ergh , should i call ? ( like always)

.huft , i'm scared , dude .

.i'm scared that you change more than this .

.i know , i know i've let you change ,

.but , i don't know ..

.i just don't think that you'll change this soon .

.i miss the old you !

.the one who always accompany me thru the night ,

.the one who always makes me laugh ,

.and yes , the one who always makes me cry in the middle of the night .

.that dude .

.well , maybe you were right ,

.we should be separate .

.yeah , because this is what will happen when you busy with you own stuff :

.me with my own think , bad and good .

.ergh , i don't know dude .

.not at all !

*feeling missing , lhonasuper*

good luck , dear

.you.

.now i understand.

.even if you said you wouldn't change,

you'll change anyway.

.not because you want to, but beacuse you have to.

.you have to fit in your new world , dear.

.a world where i don't think my name is written

there.

.feel free to change dear.

.it's ok.

.i know deep inside you still the same guy

i know.

.i'll be there anytime you need me.

.always there , as i promised.

.good luck , dear.

.love, lhonasuper (sapi).

This is the picture of my grandparents this afternoon when we had lunch together . See how much they look adorable by wearing the same batik shirt . I asked Opa ( grandpa) to sit next to Oma ( grandma ) for this picture taking , and he just smiled to me and sit next to her .

This is called happy journey . Live together , love each other . What a couple ♥

Love both of you ♥

Lhonasuper

welcome to the world sweetie !

This is a picture of my four-day-old niece , helsa . welcome to the world sweet pie :)

Always glad to have you here with us !

Can't wait to see you ♥

see you soon ♥

lhonasuper