a lot of fun :)

well , i went to PACET yesterday with my very best friends Nuno , Ndott , Surya , and Chee ~ well , wait up for the photos okaay ?

lhonasuper

the real reason ?

well , is it possible when a relationship ended by the guy it's not because the guy doesn't love her anymore ? instead , the reason why he leave her is because he loves her ? many relationship ended because of social status . when i said social status , i'm not talking about money or power , but the differences in how to joke or how to talk or how to act . well , many girls willing to come into the guy's world , but then the guy leave her . if asked why , the guy answered 'i like her the way she is' . lhooo ? then , what should the girls do ? what should the guy do ? what should they do to make them being in a relationship again ? because if you really really know , most of the guys are still totally in love with the girls and so are the girls !

(thanks to ka Sisca )

lhonasuper ♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸❤¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪

wow !

well , it's nothing ..
just , i met one of the vokalist of a national band in indo called d masiv ~

it's quite funny actually , here's the story :

i went to a restaurant called leko with my fams , i sat down near washtafel and i saw a guy who look like my friend ( read : from behind ) . i was just trying to find out when he turned around and i just thought 'i know this guy'! after our eyes met ( read : i was half doing idiotic pose ) i realized it was ryan , the vocalist of d masiv . many people there , was taking picture with him , but i think i'm to shy to do it ( read : lazy >< ) . anyway , it was nice to meet him ..

good luck to d masiv , lhonasuper

Last Poetry

Tangisanku pilu menembus malam .

Tapi tak bisa membuat hatiku lebih baik .

Orang – orang disekitarku mulai bertanya ,

Lhona , ada apa denganmu ?

Inginku jawab pada mereka :

‘Aku sakit hati’

Ya ,

Semua sudah berakhir .

Semua keindahan hidup selama sebulan terakhir ,

Semua cerita cinta selama sebulan terakhir,

Malam ini berakhir sudah !

Bukan aku yang mau ,

Tapi dia yang kusayang .

Tangisanku sudah kau dengar ,

Kepedihanku sudah kau dengar ,

Tapi memang itu keputusanmu . .

Dan tak bisa aku rubah .

Mungkin aku terlalu naïf ,

Kalau aku berangan untuk kau jadi yang terbaik bagiku .

Mungkin aku terlalu bodoh ,

Yang menutup pikiran kalau kau bisa tidak sayang padaku .

Semuanya begitu indah . .

Saat kau disampingku ,

Saat kau memelukku ,

Saat kau mengecup keningku ,

Bahkan saat kau mengomel ,

Dan mengolok – olok aku !

Sebagai seorang manusia aku tidak ingin semua ini berakhir .

Tapi apa mau dikata ?

Yang kusesali kau pernah bilang sayang ,

Padahal hatimu ragu . .

Yang kusesali kau membuatku serasa benar – benar kaucintai ,

Tapi ternyata , semua itu hanya topeng !

Mungkin hanya aku orang yang pernah bilang padamu ,

Bahwa aku sakit hati , tapi sambil tertawa .

Tapi andai kau lihat jauh ke mataku ,

Aku hancur !

Aku tidak lebih dari kaca yang terpecah karena dibanting pemiliknya .

Kau mau aku untuk kuat .

Kau mau aku untuk bertahan .

Jangan kau kuatir , sayangku ~

Aku pernah berjanji untuk bertahan ,

Dan akan kulakukan meski semua sudah berlalu .

Kau mau aku membuka hatiku ?

Oke !

Akan kubuka hatiku ,

Tapi asal kau tahu ,

Tidak sembarang orang bisa masuk !

Kau membuatku muak dengan seribu maafmu ,

Tapi aku tidak bisa bohong kalau aku masih sayang kamu .

Ketika di akhir cerita kita kau masih mau menjadi ‘kakak’ bagiku ,

Tak apa .

Itu sudah cukup !

Terserah mereka mau bilang aku bodoh dan kekanak-kanakan ,

tapi kau akan lihat ,

Inilah lhona ,

Adikmu ,

Yang akan berusaha tersenyum dan tegar

Yang akan berdiri tegap ,

Menyongsong hari esok ,

Tanpa hadirmu lagi .

PS : ga semudah itu aku nglupain kamu en buka hati buat cwo laen ! dasar bego ! xDD

11.40 PM =

With all of my love,

And the rest of my tears ,

And the rest of my energy ,

Illona fedora

lesson from pooh

"Tigger is all right really," said Piglet lazily.

"Of course he is," said Christopher Robin.

"Everybody is really," said Pooh. "That's what I think," said Pooh.

"But I don't suppose I'm right," he said.

"Of course you are," said Christopher Robin.

well , this is my point of view : everybody was made beautiful and unique in their own way . don't be jealous or angry or mad for what you have today . hey , if the less lucky can thank God for what they have , why we can't ?

*thank God for everything you have , because you have it for God's good plans :)

God bless , lhonasuper

not again , please !

you can call me stupid

you can call me weak

you can call me freak

you can call me anything !

yes , i am crying !

so what ?

i am sad , well , yet happy

i am glad you get what you've been dreaming

but then i understand than you are gonna leave

soon or later !

well i don't know what to say

this lips just freeze

and tears just slowly come out

i hate when you say good bye

it happened once and it's gonna happen again

you're gonna leave me (again) !

well , i'm nothing but a girl

a girl who still feel the rest of the love

love from her past !

thousand times i asked myself to let you go

but i just can't !

cannot , god dammit !

ergh , i don't know ~

i'm just afraid that you'll change

and change

and change

at least say it to me

tell me that you are hard to leave

tell me , please

tell me

bee's attack !

March 6h , 2010 . we , xis2 of petra 2 christian hs , visit MAJAPAHIT MUSEUM , one GATE , and 'TIKUS' TEMPLE . it was a total fun activities ( even the heat was burning our skin ) . we enjoyed it so much ! unfortunately , our friends , cecilya and sylvia couldn't go with us :'(

as you see in the picture , we wore a bee costume ( it's a jacket actually! ) . and eah , it's our class' jacket . looks pretty cool , huh ? We spent 150000 rupiahs to make it , but it's just worth it!

another picture will be uploaded soon :)

catch you later , lhonasuper *

dude !

.people hate waiting , right ? so am i , dude !

.i just want to congratulate you .

.don't you have enough time just to reply my text ?

.ergh , should i call ? ( like always)

.huft , i'm scared , dude .

.i'm scared that you change more than this .

.i know , i know i've let you change ,

.but , i don't know ..

.i just don't think that you'll change this soon .

.i miss the old you !

.the one who always accompany me thru the night ,

.the one who always makes me laugh ,

.and yes , the one who always makes me cry in the middle of the night .

.that dude .

.well , maybe you were right ,

.we should be separate .

.yeah , because this is what will happen when you busy with you own stuff :

.me with my own think , bad and good .

.ergh , i don't know dude .

.not at all !

*feeling missing , lhonasuper*

good luck , dear

.you.

.now i understand.

.even if you said you wouldn't change,

you'll change anyway.

.not because you want to, but beacuse you have to.

.you have to fit in your new world , dear.

.a world where i don't think my name is written

there.

.feel free to change dear.

.it's ok.

.i know deep inside you still the same guy

i know.

.i'll be there anytime you need me.

.always there , as i promised.

.good luck , dear.

.love, lhonasuper (sapi).

This is the picture of my grandparents this afternoon when we had lunch together . See how much they look adorable by wearing the same batik shirt . I asked Opa ( grandpa) to sit next to Oma ( grandma ) for this picture taking , and he just smiled to me and sit next to her .

This is called happy journey . Live together , love each other . What a couple ♥

Love both of you ♥

Lhonasuper

welcome to the world sweetie !

This is a picture of my four-day-old niece , helsa . welcome to the world sweet pie :)

Always glad to have you here with us !

Can't wait to see you ♥

see you soon ♥

lhonasuper